It's 4 am and I can't sleep. Thinking about so many things. Perhaps it's a bit too early to be making New Years resolutions, but for the first time in my life I do wish to find some sort of balance. In the past I've been passionate about things but in a way where my life is a zero sum game — I do one thing I forget about everything else. It's been the same with musical tastes, relationships, studies, dress sense. Maybe the hard and humbling thing is realizing that perhaps I can't turn the dial to 11 on anything without switching everything else off.